The man who can't be moved, a bright sparkle and the spontaneous one

1. It cannot be wrong to love someone just because you do. This morning I arrived at work and my friend told me that Next Boy was leaving for another job elsewhere. Until that moment I hadn't realised how much I'd grown to love him in the few months he's been with us. He is a nice, funny man with a gorgeous open heart. He arrived all smiling and clean-looking and I told him how mad I was that he was going, just when we'd got to like him, just when we could trust that he had an enthusiasm and a fine will. He said he had a song on his pod of joy he thought I'd like to hear. I listened to it: The Script "The man who can't be moved" and moistened. I listened to it just now and cried, big tears, really big tears. Great sadness and sense of loss that Next Boy is going and at the same time enormously happy for him. The song is generic rubbish, but expresses the feelings so very well, and I've put the video here to remind me.



2. Being soft-hearted I'm feeling a bit sensitive to almost anything. Little Phil got in touch today by email. Here's another beauty. A human being. We had a brief email conversation about the kind of stuff we often chat about...and the news is he'll be off soon too. I have been so very fortunate in recent months to meet some truly perfect human beings and this bloke is right up there. I really wish him well. He is a bright sparkle in a dull cloud.

3. I have been lost. Emma pointed this out to me recently. She was spot on. Friendship and love remind me that there is good cause to carry on trying to make a difference and trying to find a way to be true and trusting instead of lying and being suspicious. I have tried to be a friend to he-who-shall-not be named and curiously at every turn that friendship has been dislodged and disowned. Like the man in the song above, I have not been moved from my task to care about this person and I doubt that I ever will. My soft heart was moved yesterday by a spontaneous and high octane event of friendship and the love that is generated and inevitably drives it forward. My heart is beginning to fill again after a long period of emptiness. I am so thankful that there are beautiful, amazing and generous people in the world. My heart has been bursting with excitement and happiness and I have been full, really full of love for all my friends, especially the spontaneous one, who is truly loved and respected and cared for. We both know what happened and why.